Why do I read Tarot?
Because I think it’s great?
Because it really helps people navigate what’s going on their lives?
Because it helps me navigate my life?
20 years ago, when I had my first tarot reading, I went because I couldn’t decide what to do. I had no idea what was ‘best’ and was living in a constant state of anxiety concerned about doing ‘the right thing’. Never sure what ‘the right thing’ was? And was terrified of making the wrong decision; afraid of making a mistake. Nuts!
I seemed to need some sort of authority figure, a higher power if you will to help tell me make decisions. I didn’t seem to have the confidence to follow my instincts and instead became a classic procrastinator, always keeping all balls juggling in mid-air, afraid to drop one, and equally afraid to decide on anything.
All I can say is in my defence is when I was a child my Mother was my higher power; and a very powerful one. You didn’t mess with my Mother and her higher power, so I didn’t get to know my own. I didn’t even know I had one. I didn’t consider myself, except in relation to pleasing her.
We all know babies think they are part of their mothers for perhaps up to the first two years of their lives. It’s is around the start of the ‘Terrible Twos ‘when a child realise they are separate and have their own desires and start to test their boundaries!
So if you aren’t encouraged to make your own decisions as a child, it’s bound to carry over. One reason why I’ve always been very happy once given boundaries. told what the rules are, the aim of the game. It’s my happy place. I feel secure. I know what to do and what is expected of me.
Tarot has slowly changed all that.
I have found tarot readings give people the security to trust themselves. You think its the other way, you are going to another source for advice but actually in a reading; once you gain insight, understand the options, the potential, have fresh advice and ideas, you have the information you need to feel confident navigating life. And the wonderful thing about Tarot, is the cards generally endorse what you already felt, knew, but couldn’t quite reach.
Certainly over the years I found the Tarot to be a wonderful tool that helped me learn to trust my own intuition. Slowly, reading after reading, my instincts were reflected and I realised a lot of the time I did ‘know’ what to do.
It’s a big part of why I was so motivated and still am, to read Tarot… to help others in times of uncertainty, and especially people ‘like me’ out of the misery I remember so well in my younger years. It is a very real agony living in uncertainty and doubt, not knowing your own mind, not knowing yourself, and in fear of doing the wrong thing all the time! Not to mention a tragic waste of so many hours of anxiety and procrastination!
Come and have a tarot reading with me in Battersea or online. I give safe, honest and practical readings that will restore your faith in yourself and life.