Taking a risk with tarot

The knight of swords goes for it.  Sword held out in front of him as he kicks his horse into a gallop as if he’s heard the order ‘charge’ is how I imagine the image on this tarot card.

Sometimes you’ve got to GO FOR IT!

This Knight charges at what he wants because he’s afraid if he doesn’t he will loose his nerve. Receiving this card in a reading there’s a feeling of being encouraged to ‘go for it’, setting your mind to what you want, because if you don’t you might/will regret it.

I pulled it two days ago and still haven’t quite ‘gone for it’….I’ve been prevaricating, it does feel risky, and so I am writing this, in order to understand this knight better and perhaps follow his advice. 

Taken in a general context I’m happy to be encouraged to go for what I want and be a bit riskier, in the context of whether to put up the price of my readings, I am undecided, yes a little bit, but what is the right figure?

Sometimes tarot reading seems so easy to me, it feels totally natural to fully engage in whoever sits across from me, either in my conservatory or online.  I feel fully present and confident that the tarot cards they pull or I pull on their behalf will bring the insight and clarity needed to relieve any anxiety and replace it with at least the relief of understanding and hopefully with renewed confidence about the direction in which to head. Or where they are heading. I just do my best to read the cards as accurately as I can in collaboration and in response to my client. 

Sometimes these readings feel profound and almost life changing, certainly they often are turning points, and equally there are readings which I rather think the client will forget instantly, except for the one sentence they heard out of the whole reading.  And sometimes the client doesn’t get the reassurance they wanted but rather the reassurance that what they hoped wasn’t true is true.  If anything can be called ‘true’.

And so each reading has a value to me and a value to them.  Perhaps raising my prices will discourage the clients who come who want to know why a boyfriend left them and whether they can get them back?  And I understand the desperation.  I went to a tarot reader and medium myself long ago in New York and she ripped me off thoroughly, I can’t remember how many dollar bills I needed to give her which she was going to wrap up and put under a pillow and put a spell on.  Or did I put it under my pillow to start with and then take it to her for an offering to the Gods, I can’t quite remember.   Whatever I did, it didn’t work.  And actually even as I type it occurs to me how relevant the knight of swords was then, I am half of me, after all in normal life, sane and logical, knew this kind of exercise was mumbo jumbo but the other half thought perhaps going for it showed an act of faith and willingness would encourage the universe to bring back my boyfriend.  What the hell, I had nothing to lose it was worth risking the money.

So you are talking to Ms Gullible here and perhaps why I have such sympathy for others in this situation.   Desperate, miserable, and wanting their partners back and often even when the relationship doesn’t make them happy.  I wish, as I write it occurs to me, I had come to a tarot reader like me, as I imagine I would have got a different take on the Knight of Swords.  She would have said, what do you really want to do? And I would have said fly to him.  And in retrospect I have often thought that is what I should have done but didn’t take the risk.   If I’d been my tarot reading I would have said, go, what have you got to loose. But that’s not what happened.

You have to hold your nerve with the knight of Swords.  And that’s what I could never do.  On many occasions later I would fly to California, both parties in hopeful expectation, and my nerve would fail me.

Hey ho, will it now?

I am smiling as I write this, as ever, when I write about Tarot as it teaches me so much and I had completely forgotten my disastrous Knight of Swords moment. 

Do come and have a tarot reading with me, in Battersea or online.  It would be my pleasure and I hope freeing for you.